I think the drama that always seems to find me comes from wanting to be alone and around people at the same time. I think the whole overwhelming feeling has worn off, (like the shock of jumping into a cold swimming pool) and I'm starting to think.
Thinking is a blessing and a curse for me. On one point, I always have a good deal of the angles calculated so that lets me land on my feet more times then not. The flip side to that blessing is it's very draining. I've been working on and actually succeeding on not letting it sap me out totally.
When it's all been said and done, right now I have a pretty charmed life. Like any environment the challenge lies in maintaining the over all environment while changing particulars.