catch22 (catch22) wrote,

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It's funny how things in life rise and fall like the tide. There are certain things that terrify me to the point of crying, and then it's gone and doesn't seem so terrifying. I don't know if this is the change in lighting or surroundings. Right now I'm wearing a tank top and pajama bottoms and I'm cuddled up in a blanket watching my cat try and drink water out of a pint glass sitting on my desk...and all of this after a nice long nap. It's a pretty calming time, and I'm glad for it.

I think the drama that always seems to find me comes from wanting to be alone and around people at the same time. I think the whole overwhelming feeling has worn off, (like the shock of jumping into a cold swimming pool) and I'm starting to think.

Thinking is a blessing and a curse for me. On one point, I always have a good deal of the angles calculated so that lets me land on my feet more times then not. The flip side to that blessing is it's very draining. I've been working on and actually succeeding on not letting it sap me out totally.

When it's all been said and done, right now I have a pretty charmed life. Like any environment the challenge lies in maintaining the over all environment while changing particulars.
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