I think one of my biggest problems in life is relaxing. I'm the chick who gets things done and always knows what to do until I don't know what to do. This whole tense thing is where I hit a brick wall in sparring. The funny thing is when I'm grappling until I'm at the point of needing to tap out I'm not thinking or anything I'm just moving and trying stuff. Then when it doesn't work, I'm trying different stuff. I need to figure out how to make my life be more like that, then I think it'll be less evil. Anyway I clean now because my new sofa is arriving next weekend and the parents the weekend after that.