I wish I had a road map that said go here accomplish these things, go here and do these things. I've applied for a possition in law enforcement. I don't have the uncorrected vision to make the cut, but if I get lasik and go 3600 dollars into debt, I'll have my shot (chances being 1/1000) to actually making it from applying to being where I think I want to be. Worst case situation is I lose my vision and don't make the cut. It's not doubt, it's more of an is it worth it.
After alot of thinking about who I really am. I somehow always knew. Like they say. Find yourself a kingdom worthy of your soul.