I went to my first CAP meeting. It was great. Plan here is to find $4000 for a PPL. I'm so tempted to steal just once from my 401K so I can do the thing now. Right now I'll just work the finance end, get my pilot's license, work with the cadet corps, and get into the CERT stuff. I also need to finish this Children's Hospital project.
I finally am starting to wake up. Today I so need to finish my homework assignments. I also need to sign up for the math class I want to take. It's either trig or stats. I want to take as much math as possible just to prove to myself I can do it.
I fee alive today. I feel happy. I see where I want to be, frustrated that I'm not there right now, but there's a possible path that way. John is right, might as well kick back and enjoy the show, The situation isn't in my control. I find my heart, though all bruised and crap, healing. It just is going to take a little time.