I awake from one dream to another. Only after finally solving the problem in the first dream. For a moment I think "I'm going home." Then bam....one complexity for another. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it to shut out the realization of how and what we feel. I don't blieve that's 100% possible and I think you loose something in not feeling. So now from being normal to being numb to knowing what and how most the time...I would rather deal with all the hurt, pain, tears, and confusion then never feel what it is to love. I would rather be able to look in someones eyes, anyones eyes and feel the sunshine and hear the laughter in the music that never stops.
