I know. I know everything. I even know what may pass. I've been given a second chance to be me before I got so fucked up. Before I was almost raped. It took me 7 years to get this far. I finally get my peace. I know what I want. I am in a position to get most everything except one thing. If that is the case 9-10 isn't bad. Here's to faith renewed. Here's to newness. Here's to life, friendship, and love. God I feel like a child again. The type of feeling when you were young and felt like a lord of all creation in your world. This is equatable to when I was 10 and we use to play in a mud hole during monsoon season. It's the joy of squishing mud between your toes. God works in mysterious ways.